Sunday, February 26, 2012


At this moment I am confronting my biggest phobia. I may be on my way to the hospital or something. I know I should go. And for me to feel bad enough to consider that means I feel bad. I haven't felt like eating in days- among other things. I have no money, no insurance, and I don't want welfare. I feel like I'm dying and I am scared out of my mind. I don't want to leave my 4 year old daughter fatherless, but I also don't want to die and leave her with a lot of debt from my hospital bills.



  1. Kent,

    Relax on that last point: Your 4-year-old daughter is not, and cannot be held, responsible for your debts. At the very most, property you had intended to leave her might be seized for payment of those bills. If she was an adult and AGREED to take financial responsibility for your medical needs, that would be a different story. But obligations undertaken by you don't magically become your children's debts if you die.

    If you're sick, get help -- and do your best to pay for it, of course.

  2. Don't think anymore about it, just go.

  3. Go. No one but you will be responsible for the bill. It might be worth you while to try to find a clinic-there are a few around here-that will treat you free, or for far less. But go.

  4. I went. Am waiting for some test results.

    Paid for the doctor visit with money that was supposed to be used for fairly critical car repairs, and made a payment agreement with the hospital. But at least it is done, except for the waiting.

    The doctor seemed optimistic and encouraging, so, even though I actually feel physically worse tonight, it is without the psychological agony of the past "undisclosed period of time".

  5. I'm glad to hear the Dr. was optimistic. Hopefully everything will turn out to be fine, or treatable.

  6. Just talked to the doctor's office.

    Everything is probably fine, although I am supposed to go for a follow-up test in 2 months for one potential issue, and in 6 months for another. Now, as long as the antibiotics do what they are supposed to do (and the naproxen works) I should be feeling better in a few days.

    An undiscovered internal infection can really wear a person down after a year and a half.

  7. I'm not getting better as fast as I'd like. I realize that isn't a reasonable complaint. At least I know what is wrong and can stay on top of the situation. And, I am no longer getting worse.